.. Write Again ..

Heya.. Long time no see huwfh..
There, the holiday going to pass and I haven't finish my THR(Tugas Hari Raya). I hate that.. huh
I'm too busy this week..

My Holiday? i don't have a schedule, so i don't have a trip too(Even though I really wanted to visit the island of Java).
Not too bad, maybe I'm just going through Christmas Eve while playing fireworks with my friends (become as children..hehehe).

Hey .. shortly, we Christians worldwide will celebrate Christmas.
Yupz, Christmas came again, like a year that has passed.
Everyone was celebrate with full fanfare and happiness.
But this year, Christmas was different for me. Very different.

I don't know what was happening to me? I just don't understand.
It feels like there is so much anxiety in my heart.
Unlike the year before, now I really want to know the meaning of Christmas.
They said that Christmas brings peace. But why there is no peace that I guess?Why only qualm?

Towards the end of the year, I kept thinking about what I had done along this year. And it makes me feel sad.
Not much good, just error after error that I do. Some people go away from me because of my attitude. I've hurt their hearts.
In fact, ordinary people who listen to me now beginning to escape from me. Perhaps she will also leave me alone.

Maybe all this is the result of my own actions. I dumped them very dear to me. I do not appreciate those who really care about me and I have disappointed those who looked forward to me. Without knowing it, I have become the most ruthless man in this year.

If I had to change the attitude? I think this is the right time to do. I don't want to be like this continue. And I've been trying to do my best, why always fail?
Maybe this Christmas Eve, I have to think of everything to see what's wrong with me .. hehehe
Well, I started to feel good after writing this.Yupz, writing has become a kind of therapy for me.

Now I'm ready to welcome Christmas with great joy.

To all of you who celebrate it, Happy Christmas Day!!
May the peace of Christmas continue to be with us all .. Amen.